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I actually don't have much.... except I have my new camera! and I'm loving cooking. Today I'm home for awhile, and planning to make a quick trip to the grocery store for a few items. Last night was sesame chicken - a recipe from martha stewart. really good! and I made yams with basil, olive oil and garlic {i love them}. Here's tonight's plan: Chicken-rice Casserole, peas and apple torte. Since it's fall... the apple torte recipe! Haven't tried it yet... but should be fab!

Apple Torte (adapted from Marian Burros Plum Torte)
3/4 cup sugar
1/2 cup unsalted butter
1 cup unbleached flour, sifted
1 teaspoon baking powder
Pinch of salt
2 eggs
Apples (4 to 5) - use Granny Smith which has been cut into halves and skin has been peeled
Sugar and cinnamon for topping.

Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Cream sugar and butter in a bowl. Add flour, baking powder, salt and eggs, and beat well. Spoon the batter into a spring form of 8, 9 or 10 inches. Place the apple halves skin side up on top of the batter. Sprinkle lightly with sugar, depending on the sweetness of the fruit. Sprinkle with about 1 teaspoon of cinnamon, or to taste. Bake for 40 to 50 minutes. Remove and cool; refrigerate or freeze if desired (but first, double-wrap the tortes in foil, place in a plastic bag, and seal). Or cool to lukewarm, and serve. To serve a torte that has been frozen, defrost and reheat it briefly at 300 degrees.


Friday, we're carving pumpkins! I'll update with pictures of the 'junk pumpkins' we made last weekend back at our parents'.

Home Alone

Tonight's my first night away from lovee since tying the knot.... I don't like it!! I had to work allllll day and he went to the bethel vs. st john's fb game and off to Cambridge to duck hunt in the morning with some guys. {Pretty lame deal for me!!} I got off work late and don't live near anyone {and some went to the hookah bar.... give me a good reason why anyone would want to go there}, so I'm still up watching tv and interneting. lame. but i don't feel tired. made myself some eggs 2 hrs ago. yea.

MY CAMERA ARRIVED!! but its not in my hands yet -- should be soon!

NEW CAMERA!!

I believe I posted it before... but found out from MOM last night that it's ordered!!!! I am soooo excited I thought about it almost the whole ride back from Willmar. I need to practice with it to figure it all out.... so I just may have some 'shoots' with people! It's my christmas/bday present that is many months past due. but it will be fabulous - my mom actually got one for herself already so I was able to see its beauty personally and in action!!

dslr canon rebel xsi - yes!

First Day

of work! It went pretty well - I got to do a lot of sales/returns, etc. on my own even though they said I would only "shadow" on my first day. It went by pretty quickly, although it's a long time to be standing and putting clothes away :) So, after the first day, I listen to my voicemail and got asked to do a phone interview for a marketing internship {if only timing was better!} I'm definitely still going to do the interview because the position would provide more experience and the pay is about double! That'd be great if it worked out..

Wow - my computer is going insane trying to upload some pictures.

Anyway, lovee and I went to the Twins Game on Thursday!!! It was absolutely the most fabulous game of any team I have ever been to. It was exciting till the very end, we had great seats, and the fans couldn't stop cheering. Everyone stayed for about 10 minutes just on their feet cheering after the game was over {it went in to 10 innings}. We took the light rail home and people couldn't stop hootin and hollerin - they cheered the light rail as it went by even! SUCH A BLAST! Now, good luck to them as they play tomorrow to take the division!!!

Job Search

I'm graduating in 3 months!!!!


AHHHH

I didn't realize how fast that will come. Therefore, it's time to nip job searching in the butt.

How to move on

So - honestly - I feel like a tiny bit of a loser. Moving on past being bummed about pictures?? Maybe sounds a bit stupid... yea. I agree. Yet, it was the most important thing that has happened to me thus far --- and we spent tons of money to have memories on it! (Yes, how much we spent is definitely one of the key things to my disappointment. If we'd spent less- I'd be more pleased with the result). Ok, now I don't feel so dumb. Remembering the cost makes it more upsetting. ugh

Sooo

how do I get myself to think it's all ok??!

My Struggle

I tend to be a dweller. I dwell on what I love; I dwell on what I can't stand. Whether it's good or bad {ok, the bad is a much bigger dwell-digger} I have a tough time getting past certain things. I'm not sure if it has to do with forgiveness, or just the fact that I fill myself up with excitement and either LOVE it, or am extremely disappointed.

In this case, I'm "extremely disappointed." I can't stop thinking about our wedding photos. I try not to look at other people's - to compare what they have and I don't. It's eating me though. I was sooo excited to get married {it was great} yet photos have always been a huge deal to me. I don't know what it is about them {that is so amazing}. Anyway, we have beautiful wedding pics - but there could be so much more. so many more. so many more angles. so many more people. just so many.

So, WHAT DO I DO?? I'd really like to get some printed. I think that will help me feel better. I tried so hard to pick out the perfect photographer. I had my doubts - but looked at so many {my first choices were actually booked} so I picked a great lady. Fun, enthusiastic, and loves the Lord. But, our pictures! and our second photographer sure seemed to be a joke. i'm so bummed. the people I could have picked...

Here's where I'm really questioning:

Is this part of God's plan? Ya know, is there a purpose behind this - something for me to learn? someway to reach other people? some possibility down the road?? or, is it just a bad learning experience {to be really careful if its really important} I struggle with whether everything has a plan and a purpose. Are things really meant to be? Or, does God just use our good or bad choices towards good. Like, I could choose to let this lead to something good. Or will it automatically? I kind of believe both philosophies half and half.

what to do???!?

PIZZA FARM!!

We had such a fabulous time! I 'captured' Evan and drove him nearly 2 hours {while he had NO IDEA where we were going!} It was very exciting. When we hit Stockholm, WI {town the farm is located - yes its a legit real farm} he was so confused. The sign read: Stockholm. Pop. 92. haha! We get there around 7 and the sun was starting to set {so early!:( } and there were still tons of cars lined up. So we grab our picinic stuff, and head to the lawn where soo many people are still sitting there with tables, chairs, tablecloths, candles, lanterns, etc. etc. etc. just hanging out! It's crazy: you bring EVERYTHING you want because they only sell organic pizza and bread -- the ingredients are grown right there at their farm! It's the coolest 'old time' thing: full brick ovens outdoors, cats galore, old lights and deer antlers and cobwebs, old barns, etc. And the guys making the pizza dough singing in the kitchen.

{I'll add a little more updates about it after I finish my homework!}

one more

today i didn't do too much productive {during the afternoon} besides shower. i felt like a lame wife after lovee got home from school. and i was supposed to grocery shop {as previously mentioned} but didn't. so we had practically no food. then, i did make a soup which was delicious, and cookies. and cooked potatoes, carrots and onions, and a bit of brocolli. and man, i can tell

it made lovee soo proud. he loves when i'm a good housewife.

i feel redeemed.
the end.



{someday i'll post a pic of my darling apron!} {which has yet to be worn :)}

SURPRISE!!!

I'm taking lovee on a surprise date tomorrow. And I can mention because he doesn't read my blog {nor anyone else} ... :) I'll tell about it after the date! So excited!!!

Things always come up in life that I need to mention a 'surprise' or 'be prepared' or 'just checking' statement to make sure it will run smoothly... I want to get over that fear and just do it! tomorrow seems to be the day! {although I did ask Evan if he's free, etc, and I think he questioned a little why I wondered, but nothing beyond that}

Psalm 103

1Bless the LORD, O my soul, and all that is within me, bless his holy name!
2 Bless the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits,
3 who forgives all your iniquity, who heals all your diseases,
4 who redeems your life from the pit, who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy,
5 who satisfies you with good so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.


I met a women, receptionist of the entire corporate office at UHG, who is 74 years old. She looked about 55. When I told her how surprising her age is, she told me she prays Psalms 103 every morning... and then she repeated the above 5 verses to me right then and there.

I hope to be a fountain of the spirit such as this. Share your blessings, share your light, share your Jesus at the drop of the pin. She reveled in Jesus so much that He simply blurted out of her mouth - really without her control. How perfect to be so enveloped by the spirit! I have a few more examples of stories she told me, but I'll maybe share those another time.

How great is our God!

Day = random/boring/interesting

Couple things on my mind.

How to share?

Jumbled = word of the day.

Woke up at 11:30am today.... not too impressed with myself! I was hoping to be roaring and ready to go by 10:00am (big goal I know). Anyway, lovee came home for lunch and then I looked at wedding photographers online. I felt very unsatisfied with the coverage of my wedding for a while. Then, I looked at my pics again and I feel a bit better.

I need to get a new passport pic --- hasn't happen cause you want a good time to take a decent pic, and now its getting to be too late! Come on, girl. {self}

I have lots of reading to do tonight, and that's one thing I never look forward to. I remember in kindergarten when my sister {second grader} got to go to the governor's mansion for reading. I never quite hit those achievement standards! {in that category}

Time to do some grocery shopping. I usually enjoy it - today not looking forward to it.

I keep thinking about my faith - -- {yes I do this regularly, and that's a positive!} Recently though, it's about how I should be living. I know everyone has their own evaluations of how to live their life, what is good, what is bad, etc, but seriously, I want to know the truth! I don't want to live by my own opinions, but rather really figure out how to please God. In contrast, I do believe that sin is different for people, such as some actions are ok for one person, but not for another {having to do with temptations, etc} Yet, there are many things that fit in to the {wrong} category for everyone. And by wrong I don't mean: judge them and point at their bad behavior. By wrong I mean: not honoring Jesus and storing up treasures in heaven. I think this is a huge contrasting difference, and the {grey areas} have been bugging me lately. I need to be an open-minded person and still live solely for Jesus, and doing what glorifies Him.

**Time for a pic to break things up:

Ok, maybe not break things up ~ I don't have much more to write about! Except that I should get myself one of the above! Makes accomplishments of the tough feel proud. Trust me, a girl in my accounting class hit one regularly {and such was annoying, too.}

Here's my request-of-the-day {weird 'of-the-day' trend I'm using today??}

google {images} "cooking" and decide which retrieval on the first page is your favorite! Mine:

I wish I'd been in to this as a kid.

I want to

travel. but I have a news flash that isn't fun -- it soaks up money way too fast! I have dreams to see the world (more of it) before it all turns too industrialized and somewhat-similar. Fortunately, lovee is ok with that idea. Unfortunately, he's not as estatic or needy for it as I am. Let's just say I love the idea of an out-of-state adventure for at least 12 months {ok I'll take 6} and he has no desire. What? Ahhh I'm dying for it! To be honest, though, traveling the continental US would satisfy the bug for a while, too. Why must schooling be so expensive? And Herberger's pay so low?? {I really hope I do enjoy it.}

For the time being I will reminisce. Above is a pic of fulfilling one of my lifelong dreams -- taking the Sound of Music tour! Soooo much fun, I totally recommend it 251%!

Shopping day!

I've been at Herberger's all day. Had an interview {received job offer!} and then shopped cause its goodwill sales! I love it when shopping is fun and exciting. And, Herberger's isn't my dream job, but I've always loved being at the store and its basically the best retail type place to work near my home. So I'm totally game! {didn't really want to work with food, only coffee - and that requires early mornings} so- it's great! and it pays a bit more than Target, so I think I'll take this job.

Second, got lovee a surprise new watch.

And - last night we went to 'movie on a hill' at bethel --- and the night was PERFECT. no win. just a cool temp but not too chilly to even need a blanket. so great. and, it was Iron Man and I loved it! I was expecting to be bored with it {not in to action movies really} but man was it good. and clean. I don't recall a single swearword -- that's pratically unheard of! What fun.

And to judeth's vb game tonight - go bears.

lunch time!

and my hubby (lovee)'s home! it's so nice - we live 2 or 3 miles from his school, so he can just pop back here during his hour break... it's the best!

here's what's for lunch... a simple fave... but no, it's not pizza hut or dominos, but red baron! which i love.

Had a bad day

just ridiculous. here's the whole story cause a girl needs some vent time! {lovee did take that arleady, too ;)}

wake up at 9:45... great on a normal day, {bad} today as I was planning on waking up at 8am! Then, get ready in 10 min. and head to Edina Target to take my drug test {required for job acceptance} I wait over 30 min, to find out they cannot find the key for the supplies {peeing in a cup} so, he asks if I can go somewhere else to do it - it needs to be done by 2:14pm {target gives you 24 hrs from conditional acceptance} and, as he says not every Target has a clinic, there are ones in North St. Paul and Woodbury.... and sends me to N. St. Paul. With given mapquest directions in hand, I drive and drive and drive, search and search and search, to find it 2 hours later. ridiculous directions with a few roads that clearly don't exist. then, i arrive and the sweet girl at the desk says, "he should have sent you to our clinic at the Richfield location?" {3 miles from Edina store} aghhh! not what a girl needs to hear at this point. On top of that, it's been pouring rain and dreary all day long.... no sun exposure. Next, I finally do it: pee in a cup. And so gross to hold your own {warm} pee!! yuck.... i leave. buy myself quiznos to {feel better}, and head to school after missing 2/3 classes. ugh. here I am - in the day's only normal break until class starts at 2:25. great stuff I tell ya.

and why do I wanna work there? not sure if I really do! and all of this driving, stress, gas $, all for a $7.50/hour job! totally not worth it.... but I felt the need to finish what I started {and not have "did not complete drug test" on my record --- it could send the wrong signal}

GOOD NEWS: from 3:40 on out, it's a four-day weekend! I love my pre-job-life schedule! tell me again.... why am I graduating in December? oh yea... i'm a cheapo trying to save my parents {who dont' need it} $. yes. best daughter ever award?? haven't received one.

now... in an attempt to replace all the complaining i've just done and rearrange my current attitude... i did the infamous google search... and here's my favorite 1st page pic of 'happy'

and a few more... here is a pic of a 'happy' and exciting moment for me that i just found on my comp

and here's another one that makes me 'happy': girl with ugly teeth which I am thankful God did not give me {sorry for gaining happiness at anothers' expense, but man, laughs}

"is that her real mouth??!??!" you say.....

why yes; yes it is.

As a wife

life is different. I clean. I make the bed. I put away the dishes always - and I clean up all the food {not just for myself}. somehow i'm the only one who does this! {shock?} there is much greater satisfaction in having our home clean than just 'my bedroom'. I've only been married for one month, so I hope this isn't just a phase!

Also, I read cooking books.... and I enjoy it. {gasp} please tell me tips and or recipes cause I think that's the best!

it's weird -- no one reads this. yet, do I put my heart out here? wear it on my sleeve {on the internet??!}

last random thought of the day ** I think my writing technique, vocabulary, and grammatical expertise have gone down the drain! Thanks goes out to passing out of every college writing course... thank you?

good night!

man this would be good right now! {decaf -- caffeine seems to increase my pee needs}

and here's my man: simply cause I love him!

My mind

seems so full right now. I need to be reading books for Finance Seminar night class tonight.... one of them is "A New Kind of Christian" and it is soo good! {I've only read the introduction so far} and man it's making me think. I've been thinking a lot lately about how I can truly honor Jesus with my life - what actions should I be ok with in respect to Him???!

Next, we got our wedding pics back yesterday!!! There are sooo many B-E-A-UTIFUL pictures; I don't know why I feel so bummed... ok, I do. I was REALLY hoping for pictures of Evan when I'm walking towards him during our first look and at the ceremony --- none of those. I was really hoping for pictures of our centerpieces, the special picture, statue and candle honoring Evan's grandpa, people signing the guestbook at the church, ushers handing out programs.... nope, didn't get any of those. No pictures of the name cards we spent hours doing. = Bummed. And man, that stinks cause we spent thousands of dollars for these! Thankfully, I'm sure I'll be more content soon.....

Lastly, I just got a job offer today! On the sales floor at Target ---- I love that company! Unfortunately though, it only pays $7.50. Yikes! I made $17/hour this summer!!!! Those paychecks will hurt..... so I'm not sure if I'll take the job. Thankfully my orientation isn't for a few weeks. I need to think. I do feel this job could provide great opportunities in the company!! Argh

**Update, I didn't mention I have an interview at Herberger's on Saturday - but Target would be fun! I did apply for a bank teller position today at Wells Fargo - that may be a better start. And there's a few business internships I've sent my resume to; those would be fabulous but I feel doubtful. I need lots of prayer over this... Godly Wisdom, please! It's also time to look for full-time positions -- and an 'in' at Target or Wells Fargo would be great as they do promote through the company.

Here's a wedding pic for the day: it's not a new one, but we saw this a few weeks ago and it's us kissing when we first saw each other on 08.08.08

:D

and here's one more!

Cheers!

happy note - i'm still on my 4-day weekend!

and we might be having some guests over to our place for the first time tonight.... to do what? yes, you guessed it - watch some football :) It's the Vikings vs. Packers game, which is one of them I find exciting to watch :D

Lovee and I had the most fabulous weekend - you heard about saturday, and sunday we went to a wildlife refuge and hiked and did devotions. and we went shopping and decorated the apartment a bit more -- our home!

xoxoxo

Are you ready for some football?!

Whether yes or no, it's too late to matter.... living with my husband and having cable has certainly introduced me to life with sports on the tv practically 24/7. literally. if I didn't beg him for a little 'other' tv time, we'd have espn or fsn on 100%.... luckily, i get roughly 10% of the tv's time to 'my' shows. here's the toughy: i enjoy watching sports when I can relate to them.. ie. it's a minnesota team, or a big game {superbowl, big matchup, etc} but in this house, we watch EVERY game --- including high school football on tv! uh, dumb and boring! well ok, it's not so much boring but more so overload kill. worse - the twins are still in season and they're on almost EVERY NIGHT. and guess what; I love the twins! but not every stinkin evening. so, ladies out there, either don't get your husband cable or set up a tv schedule (or tv-off schedule!) i wish i could!!! oh, and if we hadn't bought cable, he'd have the radio on every evening - so loud and staticky, too.

i love my life :) {i do have a fabulous husband}

lazy day martinis

Lovee and I had an awesome we're-married day... sleeping in, love {stuff}, tv {his college football}, making food together and cleaning up together, and then going out in the evening to watch the U of M game and have a drink and appetizer. Well, we went to Majors first. great place. the bar area seemed so nice and classy, was very spacey, big and beautiful. and lots of tvs. it was gopher nation time - they dominated. all in all fabulous. lovee kept saying how I was the best wife ever for today.

So, I'm not much of a drinker - rarely like the taste of the alcohol {and usually not good enough to make up for the price}. Regardless, we were going out so I ordered a martini - a barbietini or something. It was pineapple, banana, and orange flavored or something. Decent - too fruiti schmooti in a fakey way. Anyway, I kept saying how this is ok but the flavor and size isn't worth $5 - a bit of buyer's remorse you may say. Well, the bill comes, and my martini is not $5 but a whooping $8.50! WHAT??! Yes, you heard me right. For a no good, fruiti-patootey, maybe possibly barely reaching 8oz. drink. no lie. and completely unbelievable!! i can't even explain how outrageous that is... i'd definitely have soda that's 1/5 of the price and i get loads of refills! so, here's a pic of my drink.... the yellowish-pink one on the left. looks cool - the price makes it soo horribly not fun. i'm stickin to water or root beer from here on out.... so lame i could puke

Jobless and four-day weekends

School's started and I only have class on Tuesday, Thursday and Wednesday nights! It's fabulous... and somewhat unfortunate I'll be graduating in December. {good idea to graduate early?} In the meantime, I have a four-day weekend now! It feels great. Like a gloomy and lonely summer - relaxing. But there's another but, I need to find a job to bring in some dough for Lovee and I. Job hunting sucks. It's tough to get myself up and going for it, too. Maybe a better sleep schedule would help? And once I start my job - life will be too chaotic I think. Between all the reading my classes require, homework and studying, having fun doing {stuff} with my husband, and work - life will be crazy! And that's exactly what I'm hoping not to have it be. Wish me luck!

And here's the first google image 'weekend' brought up - ha!

Honeymoon!

We had the most fabulous time.... and I want to share because I never want to forget it! It was so great for Lovee and I to get away together. We stayed at Blue Fin Bay resort in Tofte, Mn. It is so beautiful! Every piece of it... and Lake Superior is right at your fingertips. Our room had a deck, double jacouzzi over looking the lake, a huge bed with fantastic bedding, and a living room area and mini fridge. Plus, they gave us a bottle of free champagne! how charming! We toured the area and took pretty good dvantage of our time, but unfortunately did not get to use the free kayaks, bikes, canoes, etc. They do set up bonfires for the guests in the evenings with smores --- yum! Here's a few highlighting pics...

Here's what we did! We went to Lutsen and rode the gondala to the top of the 'mountain' and hiked around. Then we went up to Grand Marais, shopped, ate ice cream, and had dinner at "The Angry Trout". We also went to Temperance river (but didn't jump in cause someone died there recently and that made me nervous!) We also went to Gooseberry Falls and swam in the waterfall, and toured Split Rock Lighthouse. We also went back to Lutsen for dinner at their restaurant, and ate dinner at Blue Fin Grille restaurant. Coho Cafe at our resort had THE BEST bread and dip, artichoke parmesan, even Lovee agreed! On top of that, we spent plenty of time in the bedroom ;), relaxed, went in the jacouzzi, and even watched some olympics! I'll update if there's anything I forgot to mention..... yeayyahh

Life for a teenager

Sarah Palin's daughter Bristol is pregnant. A bummer as a high school senior, who will now marry - not ready for any of it. But, regardless of either, my heart goes out to her as she is now in the entire nation's spotlight and being judged by all. She's a kid. She has consequences for her actions, and unfortunately opinions from millions of people who are now viewing. my heart goes out to the poor girl, her 'fiance' and his family - what a tough spot to have so many witnessing a somewhat traumatizing event. man what a toughey. seriously, i just feel so upset with all the americans who are judging her, and worse, her mom for her daughters' actions. tough setup.

By the way

I have the best husband, ever!!! I just love him so stinkin much it hurts.

XOXOXO LOVEE!!

Photography

I'm getting a new camera and I can't wait!! It was my christmas/birthday present.... which has come and gone, certainly, but now I should finally have it! I am soo excited because I tend to obsess about pictures. So much, that I wonder if this camera will be dangerous to me emotionally ;) Seriously, I lay in bed and think about my wedding pictures.... alll..... the.... time.... Sad, yes. I just love them! Maybe photography is in my future??

Speaking of .... It's time to decide what is! Any job openings that i will LOVE? I want something will be passionate about!

State Fair!

It was a fun day of animals, exhibits, walking, and food! When I think about it, it's kind of sad we pay $8 each to eat food all day! Cause that's about all we actually do.... (except for lovee -- I always fill him up before we go, and then he never wants to eat! I get hungry much more quickly which is a curse and a blessing.) So, we ate a deep fried milky way bar (yummy!) and callanes or something (deep fried batter with a cream filling) and tons of cookies! and all you can drink milk (2 glasses, esp. cause lovee is somewhat allergic) and hmm... of course i ate the vita-mix samples they make. and the organic foods section was a bit of a disappointment this year (which i heard others whisper, as well). so really, we didn't eat too much but a lot of calories! but to the left here's a cute lil pic of me and a baby calf in the miracle barn; he was only 1 day old! and weighed more than me - haha! as you can see i was a bit excited!! I must admit, though, the barn does gross me out a bit. I'm thankfully a little too immature for it ;) Fun day with the hubby, lovee!

Being Married...

ya know what, it's weird. in one sense, it's incredibly fun! you get to hang out all day and have somewhere that you can do anything in front of - and they still love you! you can goof and laugh and totally be yourself. but here's the stinky part - when they're down or bumming or just wanna be lazy (and you don't want to), you're stuck with them. it's not like before when you're best friend is cranky and you can just get away -- not in this tiny one bedroom apartment. it really doesn't bother me too much, except what else am I to do! I feel as though I have very few friends as no one ever calls. and those that do actually live too far away to hang out. so, here i am, 'watching' vikings football and not giving a crap about it cause there are so many better things on and its only preseason! hmph

well, here is a pic to smile at. i googled 'marriage' - and it was the best image on the first page, in my opinion.

i have a new last name!
strange.
i feel as though
i should feel like a new person.
i am.
yet i'm not. i feel the same.
odd?
exciting?
surreal?
yes to all of the above.
bravo. my checks will come soon.
that will be craazy.

done. done. and done.

welp, the wedding is over. yes, it's done. so weird. i love it though. lovee and i are having so much fun together. it's so fabulous to have that feeling - that we're never leaving each other. everything just feels better that way. yet, i miss wedding planning. just a little. when i go online, i no longer look at wedding stuff. part of me is sooo glad - i have no pull to keep checking on bigger and better things. yet, it's sad. no more deciding. what's done is done. and it was fabulous, yes, but .... it's hard seeing other weddings and trying to envision if mine was just as beautiful. inside i know it was. it was as perfect as i could have asked for. and such a great time. once i get my wedding photos, i think i'll have more closure. i've seen very few images from the day, and it'd be nice to see how it was through other people's eyes. when it's your day, it's tough to notice everything. and you do wonder if people had a great time (which i've heard they had a ball!)
so --- photographer --- get to it! blog some photos. puhlease. it is killing me. thanks.

45 DAYS

and i'll be married!!!!!!!!!!!!

so insane.
and i love it.


i feel like not too much left to do, but there's gotta be.
i need: veil, makeup, escort cards, programs, outline, ask family/friends to help in small ways, ie guestbook, gifts, decorating, etc, call lakeside about pop, buy vases, guestbook, order flowers, ring bearer pillow/bowl, finalize tux info, get dress fitted, bm dresses altered, buy jewelry for the wedding, contact vendors.

and i'm sure there's more. wow. and i thought there wasn't much left to do...

Today...

is one of those days. I just had to post about it.

I'm at work... yes, blogging at work, and i feel like poo. The morning has been slow, despite a sort-of half day as we'll be volunteering this afternoon. I was so hungry I ate goldfish for breakfast - not so fun in the morning. And. I'm so tired, my eyes weigh a ton. I don't know why. And, with that, I just know I look like ..crap. Can't remember looking at myself in the mirror, but i can just feel it. i'm ready for a nap - and it's only 12:42.

on the upside, i have another bridal shower tomorrow! my first one was on wednesday - and i loved it! it was sooo perfect and loads of fun. my fabulous aunts threw it for me and it was so elegantly great. afterwards i told Lovee, "i wish i could be a bride forever." (and with that, i mean be married and still be a bride - cause it's fun!) so, tomorrow, saturday, is my second one at my lovely neighbor's home. and then .... dun dun dun.... jess is getting married in the evening! so a wedding to attend. as a bonus, the ceremony will be held at my church where my wedding will be at also, and it will be the first wedding i've ever attended there! so fortunately, i can be excited for her and get ideas for myself. muahahah. love it.

in between those two grand events, i plan on buying Lovee's wedding ring and finalizing my bouquet with my florist! (other flowers are finalized already) sunday is another pre-marital counseling session. so, now that you know every move i shall make on this june-weekend, that shall be the end.

energy - please pour yourself on to me!

and in the spirit of needing a little motivation, here's an inspiration board i love:

the blues and greens are my favorite! so elegant yet fresh and fun! board from snippetandink.com

Maybe not...

Maybe i'm more of a blog reader. it's been over a month and I've only ever made one post. haha. so i suppose this will turnout to be a random online journal. but o well. i'm not available at the moment to post much, so i'll keep this sight remaining pretty blank i suppose.

bummer dude.

LovEE--- I'm a BLOGGER!!!

So I adore searching through wedding blogs. Anything.
Pics, words of wisdom, or pure thoughts.

And now I can have my own.

I have no professional knowledge to provide others - I'm a college student and recently engaged. to. be. married. yes. I can't wait! And I have fun vision for anything fresh and fabulous.

For a while I've been obsessively trying to plan my once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, since it is just that. I might as well obsess while I can, right? The love thinks I'll have withdrawals when the wedding is over, he may be right, but I just had the idea that I may find a new search topic. Decorating and cooking. Housey-stuff. Yes, I need to become a great cook. OR, I'll free up some time.

Well, I need to go scour the internet for brilliance. I should be back soon.