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I actually don't have much.... except I have my new camera! and I'm loving cooking. Today I'm home for awhile, and planning to make a quick trip to the grocery store for a few items. Last night was sesame chicken - a recipe from martha stewart. really good! and I made yams with basil, olive oil and garlic {i love them}. Here's tonight's plan: Chicken-rice Casserole, peas and apple torte. Since it's fall... the apple torte recipe! Haven't tried it yet... but should be fab!

Apple Torte (adapted from Marian Burros Plum Torte)
3/4 cup sugar
1/2 cup unsalted butter
1 cup unbleached flour, sifted
1 teaspoon baking powder
Pinch of salt
2 eggs
Apples (4 to 5) - use Granny Smith which has been cut into halves and skin has been peeled
Sugar and cinnamon for topping.

Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Cream sugar and butter in a bowl. Add flour, baking powder, salt and eggs, and beat well. Spoon the batter into a spring form of 8, 9 or 10 inches. Place the apple halves skin side up on top of the batter. Sprinkle lightly with sugar, depending on the sweetness of the fruit. Sprinkle with about 1 teaspoon of cinnamon, or to taste. Bake for 40 to 50 minutes. Remove and cool; refrigerate or freeze if desired (but first, double-wrap the tortes in foil, place in a plastic bag, and seal). Or cool to lukewarm, and serve. To serve a torte that has been frozen, defrost and reheat it briefly at 300 degrees.


Friday, we're carving pumpkins! I'll update with pictures of the 'junk pumpkins' we made last weekend back at our parents'.

Home Alone

Tonight's my first night away from lovee since tying the knot.... I don't like it!! I had to work allllll day and he went to the bethel vs. st john's fb game and off to Cambridge to duck hunt in the morning with some guys. {Pretty lame deal for me!!} I got off work late and don't live near anyone {and some went to the hookah bar.... give me a good reason why anyone would want to go there}, so I'm still up watching tv and interneting. lame. but i don't feel tired. made myself some eggs 2 hrs ago. yea.

MY CAMERA ARRIVED!! but its not in my hands yet -- should be soon!

NEW CAMERA!!

I believe I posted it before... but found out from MOM last night that it's ordered!!!! I am soooo excited I thought about it almost the whole ride back from Willmar. I need to practice with it to figure it all out.... so I just may have some 'shoots' with people! It's my christmas/bday present that is many months past due. but it will be fabulous - my mom actually got one for herself already so I was able to see its beauty personally and in action!!

dslr canon rebel xsi - yes!

First Day

of work! It went pretty well - I got to do a lot of sales/returns, etc. on my own even though they said I would only "shadow" on my first day. It went by pretty quickly, although it's a long time to be standing and putting clothes away :) So, after the first day, I listen to my voicemail and got asked to do a phone interview for a marketing internship {if only timing was better!} I'm definitely still going to do the interview because the position would provide more experience and the pay is about double! That'd be great if it worked out..

Wow - my computer is going insane trying to upload some pictures.

Anyway, lovee and I went to the Twins Game on Thursday!!! It was absolutely the most fabulous game of any team I have ever been to. It was exciting till the very end, we had great seats, and the fans couldn't stop cheering. Everyone stayed for about 10 minutes just on their feet cheering after the game was over {it went in to 10 innings}. We took the light rail home and people couldn't stop hootin and hollerin - they cheered the light rail as it went by even! SUCH A BLAST! Now, good luck to them as they play tomorrow to take the division!!!

Job Search

I'm graduating in 3 months!!!!


AHHHH

I didn't realize how fast that will come. Therefore, it's time to nip job searching in the butt.

How to move on

So - honestly - I feel like a tiny bit of a loser. Moving on past being bummed about pictures?? Maybe sounds a bit stupid... yea. I agree. Yet, it was the most important thing that has happened to me thus far --- and we spent tons of money to have memories on it! (Yes, how much we spent is definitely one of the key things to my disappointment. If we'd spent less- I'd be more pleased with the result). Ok, now I don't feel so dumb. Remembering the cost makes it more upsetting. ugh

Sooo

how do I get myself to think it's all ok??!

My Struggle

I tend to be a dweller. I dwell on what I love; I dwell on what I can't stand. Whether it's good or bad {ok, the bad is a much bigger dwell-digger} I have a tough time getting past certain things. I'm not sure if it has to do with forgiveness, or just the fact that I fill myself up with excitement and either LOVE it, or am extremely disappointed.

In this case, I'm "extremely disappointed." I can't stop thinking about our wedding photos. I try not to look at other people's - to compare what they have and I don't. It's eating me though. I was sooo excited to get married {it was great} yet photos have always been a huge deal to me. I don't know what it is about them {that is so amazing}. Anyway, we have beautiful wedding pics - but there could be so much more. so many more. so many more angles. so many more people. just so many.

So, WHAT DO I DO?? I'd really like to get some printed. I think that will help me feel better. I tried so hard to pick out the perfect photographer. I had my doubts - but looked at so many {my first choices were actually booked} so I picked a great lady. Fun, enthusiastic, and loves the Lord. But, our pictures! and our second photographer sure seemed to be a joke. i'm so bummed. the people I could have picked...

Here's where I'm really questioning:

Is this part of God's plan? Ya know, is there a purpose behind this - something for me to learn? someway to reach other people? some possibility down the road?? or, is it just a bad learning experience {to be really careful if its really important} I struggle with whether everything has a plan and a purpose. Are things really meant to be? Or, does God just use our good or bad choices towards good. Like, I could choose to let this lead to something good. Or will it automatically? I kind of believe both philosophies half and half.

what to do???!?

PIZZA FARM!!

We had such a fabulous time! I 'captured' Evan and drove him nearly 2 hours {while he had NO IDEA where we were going!} It was very exciting. When we hit Stockholm, WI {town the farm is located - yes its a legit real farm} he was so confused. The sign read: Stockholm. Pop. 92. haha! We get there around 7 and the sun was starting to set {so early!:( } and there were still tons of cars lined up. So we grab our picinic stuff, and head to the lawn where soo many people are still sitting there with tables, chairs, tablecloths, candles, lanterns, etc. etc. etc. just hanging out! It's crazy: you bring EVERYTHING you want because they only sell organic pizza and bread -- the ingredients are grown right there at their farm! It's the coolest 'old time' thing: full brick ovens outdoors, cats galore, old lights and deer antlers and cobwebs, old barns, etc. And the guys making the pizza dough singing in the kitchen.

{I'll add a little more updates about it after I finish my homework!}

one more

today i didn't do too much productive {during the afternoon} besides shower. i felt like a lame wife after lovee got home from school. and i was supposed to grocery shop {as previously mentioned} but didn't. so we had practically no food. then, i did make a soup which was delicious, and cookies. and cooked potatoes, carrots and onions, and a bit of brocolli. and man, i can tell

it made lovee soo proud. he loves when i'm a good housewife.

i feel redeemed.
the end.



{someday i'll post a pic of my darling apron!} {which has yet to be worn :)}

SURPRISE!!!

I'm taking lovee on a surprise date tomorrow. And I can mention because he doesn't read my blog {nor anyone else} ... :) I'll tell about it after the date! So excited!!!

Things always come up in life that I need to mention a 'surprise' or 'be prepared' or 'just checking' statement to make sure it will run smoothly... I want to get over that fear and just do it! tomorrow seems to be the day! {although I did ask Evan if he's free, etc, and I think he questioned a little why I wondered, but nothing beyond that}